“Must life be considered a failure for someone compelled to stand still, forced into inaction and required to watch the great, roaring tides of life from Shore? NO… victory is then to be won by standing still and quietly waiting. Yet this is a thousand times harder to do than in the past, when you rushed headlong into the busyness of life. It requires much more courage to stand and wait and still not lose heart or lose hope, to submit to the will of God, to give up opportunities for work and leave honors to others and to be quiet, confident, and rejoicing while the busy multitude goes happily along their way.” (Streams in the Desert)
My dear friend, Kelly Tillery, posted this on Instagram a few months ago and I let out a deep breath as I read it because here was my heart and it gave me the words I needed to communicate this season of life. I didn’t know how to say that was how I felt and that there I was standing still, inactive, watching the roaring tides of life from the shore and with each wave finding less joy.
I was a person who always thought I knew who I was in Christ. I knew that Christ in us is our hope of glory and that accomplishment, honor, or status did not define me; but who Christ was in life, death, and resurrection was where I could find all of my identity and hope. And then I became a stay at home mom…
As I became less of who I was and more of this new woman who spends her days coloring, answering (or not answering) questions about worms, and dying a little more inside each time I say “potty;” I started to lose my identity and sense of worth. This quote was a wake up call to embrace the chisel of this season and find delight in knowing Jesus more. So today, I am thankful for this season and thankful for Christ teaching me how to be QUIET, CONFIDENT, and REJOICING.